Less Speech Than Speechless

As if words might be too little for everything that this is and everything that you are. Easier to keep it all inside, cherished and nurtured. What it is though, this thing we are making, this phoenix rising, my head wants to give words to everything that’s in my heart and mending my soul. I sit with pen poised and lose myself in the thoughts. Thinking, thinking… kisses, such sweet kisses… like Aurora, I’m awakened, and the kiss is the first, of course it was the first, and also the now and my thoughts are spinning away. Pen forgotten, swept up in memories; I marvel at this, at how Life can in a heartbeat, give you back every cherished thing you thought wasn’t to be, couldn’t be… Puppy love, broken hearts, soul mates, lessons that needed learning, lessons yet to be learned. My self cracks open and the words all spill out, written on to your skin these cursive kisses and copperplate caresses… whispered in your ears and finally exhausted because there will never be enough to make up for those unspoken in that space in between.
Those words left over are limitless “I love you’s” and the rhyme is always your name and if I never wrote anything again except for these… I would be content with this body of work.

~ kei
26 January 2017

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Lodestone

I wrap myself in a simple garment of cotton
One that holds in its threads the essence of you
Slipping in and out of my self and my soul
Catching stitches of the past and the present
Gently pulling my heart-strings closer together

Weaving what I once was into who I am now
Tiny healing stitches of you and me
What I am and who you see
Carried in each inhalation
Something both electrifying and benediction

Talisman or lodestone, I can’t be sure
Knowing only that mornings of late
I come awake more fully who I am
More completely my own woman
Wrapped in the scent of a man

~ kei
26 November 2016

Exposed

Here I am heart in hand
Sharp pain streaked memories rush in
An imminent squall warning
The red flags waving on a stormy beach
All the fear rises like a tide
Enveloping
My heart in a surge of protection
Shielding and yet yielding
A mist so airy
You could reach right through it
Dispersing
If only you were here

~ kei
14 March 2016

Just My Due

I’m not asking for much

Certainly, not more than what you could so easily give

Just this

A kiss

That piece of me that you hold in your memory

Because I have lost myself

My world is off its axis

And just once

I’d like to feel whole again

Complete

Loved

Beautiful

The way I did when I could see me

Reflected, refracted

Every facet diamond cut and perfect

In the depths of umber

That are your eyes

~ kei
21 September 2015

Present Echoes

Up with the birds again
Coffee in hand
Garden flowers filling my view
Still wrapped in bemusement
And dreams of you

My former boyfriend
Morphed by time
Into a friend indeed
Though by circumstance
Never a friend in need

From the fire of our teens
To a soul mate
A flame ever renewable
We forged a bond
Apart but inseparable

Sometimes I’m left lonely
By staying in touch
Words aloud and words unsaid
But you bring me to life
When I feel half dead

The world calls me back
From ancient reveries
Life’s too short for regrets
And I am so glad Dear One
That we choose not to forget

~ kei
16 July 2015