Petites Pensées ~ Equanimity

As a straightforward person

It took me a while to understand

There wasn’t a pause to  second guess my actions

I know I haven’t done anything wrong

It’s that with you, I can do nothing right

Though you may have second guessed my intentions

I stand by them with faith in simple truths

And in your ability to come around

~ kei

5 March 2016

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Free To Be

Freedom of expression, Love without repression

Fondest memories, Created when we were free

If you want me, be unchained

Don’t call up this hurricane of passion

With intent to conceal and contain

In the closet of your middle-aged angst

~ kei
11 January 2016

Uncontained

Uncontained

Honesty ~ A Repost From The Vault

I wanted to share an older post and found this one from 8 December 2013. I don’t remember writing or publishing it. It wasn’t tagged and it seems not a soul saw it.

I do remember now that it was almost three months to the day that I broke up with the Narcissist. Seems I was just beginning to unravel myself from the cocoon that had been woven around me.

The words stand. From this stronger place and going forward. Honesty is everything.

~~~~~

In retrospect, all I can say in bring honesty to a relationship
Don’t let your fear of what someone will think give you permission to not bring your true self to the table
Disguises don’t allow the bond to happen, your focus is all on appearance
You will come to resent the person you are wearing the mask for
They will never know where your anger comes from or why
When it is not they that expect it but you who won’t allow them fully in
What happens is that all the emotional investment you make in maintaining the illusion
Bleeds out of the relationship that you want so badly
All the hours and days spent in hiding, rearranging, chess-like moves and fighting
Could have been spent on loving, sharing, bonding
Don’t let a perception become your reality
Your past is past, it doesn’t define you necessarily
Someone who loves you won’t care who you slept with before
They will care that you are bringing your full and best self to them now
Don’t let the past unnecessarily shackle your present
Don’t let your fear of the unknown hijack your future
How I wish someone had told you these things long ago…
~ kei
8 December 2013
#BeReal – KARIN BOLE TUPPER

#BeReal – KARIN BOLE TUPPER

This was really fun and a positive message. I was featured in a guest post at HastyWords blog on WordPress as part of her push to further the #BeReal campaign.
If you click through, you can read my off-the-cuff and of course, nose-thumbing poem about keeping it real, “My Rebel Prayer”.

HASTYWORDS

My #BeReal guest today is Karin Bole Tupper.

I am very excited to share Karin’s poetry with you today.  May we take a few risks and enjoy the life we have.

Thank you Karin for this amazing poem.

NOTE:
If you have poetry that fits the #BeReal theme link it up using the blue button with the frog on it at the bottom of this post.


Photo on 2013-07-31 at 1#2

Karin (The Eclectic Poet)
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Poem:
My Rebel Prayer

Think I’d rather risk a wrinkle
Than turn away from the sun

Indian, Thai and fajitas are why
Someone invented tums

I’ve yet to see a gal get a medal
For avoiding MAC and Revlon

Au naturel hair or organic
Doesn’t make you a better person

Just say “No” to crocs and ‘stocks
Why give up Converse and heels

And a minivan equals relaxed fit
Remember how a ’79 Berlinetta feels?

I adore you Mozart…

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Aside

I’ll preface this by saying, there is precious little that I haven’t done or tried in my life.

One thing that I have not done is engage in the kind of rampant douchebaggery that I’m seeing everywhere online lately.

Seriously? Par example:

On your Gravatar, you are a married with two children, a less than interested husband and you’re exploring the D/s world with your Master???

For the love of Christ!

Who advertises their adultery to the entire world? I’m sure your children will be thrilled to see this in cache view in the antiquities section of the Internet of the future. How much attention do you think those children are getting?  What about the multiple personality wife and mother of many boys? Such devotion! To my man and how many others since?

And please… don’t hand me the line that all these twats use to justify their behaviour: “We’re consenting adults”.

Are you? Are you really now?

I’m pretty sure you’re the same person who sat home eating 4 pints of gourmet ice cream /  getting shit-faced on your Dad’s beer, when you found out the captain of the soccer team / cute cashier at McGeneric’s dumped your arse after making out with someone else. Now look at you! Out there doing the same on a much larger scale not caring who gets hurt. Didn’t you learn anything?

If either of you two consenting adults are married, engaged, living together or otherwise hooked up with another human; there is at least one adult who is NOT consenting. More likely it’s two who are not consenting, judging by the new face of WordPress…

Why don’t we ask the other adults involved if they’d like to give their consent? Maybe send them an anonymous toy chest or tool kit, whatever the hell it is. Or how about this? Have the balls to break up with your partner instead of publicly shaming them for all eternity.

I’m wagering we’d see Mount Consent explode like Mount St. Helen’s…

I weep for the future of Humanity.

Just thinking this afternoon…

Aside

The only thing that could spoil a day was people. People were always the limiters of happiness, except for the very few that were as good as spring itself.

~ Ernest Hemingway

People always have an expected gain when they volunteer information.

Frankly, I am inclined to be suspicious about the motives and integrity of someone who tells me something negative about another person without facts or evidence. Certainly, It begs the question: why is the teller so threatened by the person they are maligning?

As writers, we know the importance of research, checking details and sources and if it matters to me at all, I’ll be check the facts rather than to act – in any way – that gives credence to what is only gossip unless and until all sides are out in the open and not whispered “behind the walls”.

… just thinking this AM

~ kei
30 May 2015