Derailed

It’s been a long time coming

I can’t pretend I don’t care. I do

It’s just that I’m tired

And lonely

I’ve been spun off my axis once too often

My marriage, my home, my beloved pet, my “boyfriend”, my Grandmother, my sanity, my Father, the gossip, the bullshit

I won’t bitch and moan, I won’t snarl at the people who say “you’re so strong”

You’re wrong

I’m tired, alone and and I don’t even know why I’m writing this because the ears that I wish would hear are deaf to me. The eyes I want to see this are blind and I have nothing left… I feel hollow, frail and transparent

Fuck it

I have no words left, nothing inspires, I just don’t give a shit

~ kei
12 November 2015

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