Sleep Forever

It isn’t so much that I wish for death
I know I say that a lot lately
It’s more that, I feel so damn guilty
For the grief and pain I’ve caused
The broken bonds, broken life
The weight of it is killing me
Too slowly
Death would be a kindness, is all
I gambled and lost
This aftermath might just as well be my grave
And what a blessed respite endless sleep seems to me
6 january 2013